my mind lately

Assalamualaikum,

i am a type that usually bottled up my feeling. my mind is a mess. i keep confusing myself with all those thoughts that crossing my mind lately. thought like why am i like this? am i depress? stress? sad? yes, all combine and hit me in the heart at night or when i'm doing nothing. for now, i'm basically doing nothing. so i got a lot of thoughts that i never thought i will thoughts. ahaks.

and these words are some of the ways how i tried to chill myself.
sometimes it works, sometimes tears works. sometimes a time just passed.

"i'm tired, but life mean to be tiring for some people"

"be positive, because life is too short to be negative all along the ways"

"have a faith"

"be happy and grateful, there are more unfortunate people, you're lucky enough"

"Sometimes, there are people who want to be in your shoes"

"be cool"

"it's okay to cry. but not always"

like i said, i'm great at convincing myself. LOL
i want to talk to people but my heart and mind don't let me.
yes, that kind of people exist. it's me. hahahha

don't ask if i'm okay if i have gloomy mood around. i'll always tell a lie.
just be you and lemme open myself to you (if i really have too). hahahahhaa

different people have a different way to express something. and this is my way.

so, whats yours?

see ya when i see ya lah.